I have been talking about my past quite a lot of late and it has (unsurprisingly) dredged up a few memories I thought were dead, buried and long forgotten. Mainly about my old friend Carley.
I have read until 2006 on her diaryland diary and some of the stuff she's written about caused me to recall some things, not that I was much a part of her life. Her diary is all about boys. It did make me remember how I would lie for her all the goddamn time though, I was such a good friend!!
Anyway, G and I flew off to Ecuador and when we got home she had just cut me off and we've not spoken since. Nothing actually happened, at all, she just fucked off, got married, had another baby and moved to Wiltshire - didn't say a damn word.
So, due to talking about all of the shit that we did together - namely the drug fuelled coking and kissing her ex-boyfriend and going to festivals and all that I realised that I do miss her and that I class our friendship ending as 'unfinished business.'
There a few people that I don't see anymore that I think that of though, namely Aeysha. Not that Dr Aeysha gives a shit though - she didn't give a shit when we were actually friends!
What else is going on? Quite a lot if I am honest, but I feel such a sense of shame when reading this back that I don't want to make it worse.
G and I are off to China & Japan soon which will be ace. Zac's flying over here in early Feb to see us all (I worked out its been well over 600 days since I saw him last) then we will fly to Beijing together. He is having a bit of a tough time being skint I think, Dad got me to call him to check he wasn't feeling suicidal. That made him laugh and cheered him up - perversely!
Right.
Love.